O despertador tocou, acordei ainda sorombatica e ensaei os primeiros passos da manha para o banheiro...tropega fui ao vaso e dei uma pipizada basica nele...lavando as maos em seguida e pegando q pasta e o creme para a limpeza matinal dos meus dentes e minha lingua.
Adoro deixar minha lingua bem limpa sempre...bom...depois eu disse- Nao estou com fome, vou abrir o pc .
E la estavam umas mensagens pipocando .quentinhas e de Tarek.
E pela primeira vez depois de tanto tempo, vejo que o outro Tarek q Tarek se transformou ganhou forca e vida.
Tarek : Fri, my eyes. I need tell you what is in deep of my heart
Since day we couldnt more be together and i came to Turkey i see some in me was died and some in me was borning
Borned one new person in me that i cant control.
Fri that man you loved couldnt survive face of all problems and diferences of this new life i had
Here in turkey i done things so free as i never could do in egypt.
I confess you my eyes, that man you loved cant exist out of our love history
Fri, kill me in ur heart forever bec Tarek s fri doesnt exist anymore
I learned how to use people, how use woman and her feelings...i say love words to woman here, so easy to catch them...they are as western woman, they like to hear it and also they are so easy to believe in it, i feel Fri the western man cant be as we in egypt cant love woman as we love.
So, all these woman i meet after you they are durstig of love, of being treated as queen
But Fri, i swear you, words i say them are not real as was to you, my touch to them are not when was to you, my eyes cant see their soul as i see yours, my heart cant appreciate their body or personalaty as i loved yours.
I loved only one woman, and it was you...now you said dont want me more, you dont know how i suffered since that day to here.
And more women i conquered from that day to punish you.
Fri, why i am doing it, i learned in egypt dont use a woman feeling, but in this new world i live now.. so similar to western world, is so easy fri
Fri, many turkish women wish be as western woman, and also fri i met many foreigner, even from your coutry, wishing and loving each word and attention from me. I can have them so easy and any hour i wish.
I feel fri im another man, i mst be so, every plan ours and dreams failed
fri my eyes save me in ur heart going back to good in past and remind ours good time, romantic moments
Fri why u didnt wish me more, im so dying fri, world without fri is more hard and more cold
but is easy without you, but i wish the dificl with you, fri pls come to me back again
im ur pharaoh im ur egptian sand man, dont let it go save into ur heart
fri my life changed i drink now, i smoke more and do things i never done
im drinking fri.
habibit i cant believe u forgot me i cant never i could imagine it fri dont love me more
fri my eyes one only woman existed in my heart it is u and forever will be
now i love in secret it must be so
life pass in me and let marcs in my soul
fri take me from here save me
i love u fri so so a lot
Tarek
Eu deletei o email....nao posso responder, o q ele pensara se eu responder- vai alimentar ua esperanca .
Eu estive dois anos sozinha nesse mundo esperando ele, pq ele quer agora, pq esta tao magoado comigo, ele me disse tantas vezes naum
Nao entendo pq ele nao se senta na minha dor e so esfrega a ferida no coracao dele esquecendo as minhas tambem
Eu fui abandonada por ele
E se ele mudou , fisico, mental e tudo e u tambem
Nao sou mais a rainha dele, com aquele corpinho q consegui manter ate os 44 anos, estou mais gorda e diferente no pensar e ano de 2007 ele me disse q cris antes q era mais feia do q eu hoje em dia ta linda e eu nao quero ouvir isso dele de novo
Vou ficar no meu canto, com o meu amor e viver esse amor, essa passagem e vivencia com esse jovem amor alemao q torna meus dias e minha vida uma delicia !
FRI
